The butterfly needs to struggle to emerge out of her cocoon to get strong enough to fly. This has been illuminating as I have noticed: every one of my deep emotional dives instigates a time of soul-searching and healing and I emerge stronger. In fact, the best moments recently have come as a result of transformation spurned by meeting old feelings head on.
Today in I got in a brooding mood over some news and was knocking my head against invisible but still bruising walls, when I heard a baby screaming in the park and I chuckled to myself, because that was exactly how I was feeling! How annoying to feel stuck, overwhelmed and not wanting to be in that place! Rather then wallowing in total helplessness, I started cleansing some crystals and meditating, bringing myself into a more clear state of mind, and I was able to start to steer the situation in a progressive rather then a regressive direction.
Since I started engaging in mystical work to assist my life, it’s not that it suddenly got “perfect” but that I can interact with the process more skillfully and artfully.
Like the Cocoon, we all have to struggle to transform our consciousness. Now when I hit these snags, rather then getting mad, I get glad! Because I know it’s a point of transformation. A place where I’m emerging from an old cocoon that I’m now ready to get out of, and FLY!
Consciousness is the root of who we are. We are, at our essence, vibration. Our soul transforms into manifestation on the Earth , and then transforms back out when we die. Transformation is basically the dance we gotta learn! In this constant change is the learning of how to change, and learning the point around which our lives turn, which is our essential vibration, our Heart's essence, our Soul.
Earth has been called a school by many spiritual traditions, and it helps me to think of it as such. It’s not about getting it perfect. You can’t expect to know the material of Algebra 2 on the first day of school. Heck, Earth may even be summer school for those of us who flunked the first time around! So, here we are, learning in this pulsating, changing environment that expands and contracts. And ourselves as these organic vibrations of Soul, Mind and Body that also have our personal rhythms. And we interact with the outer world, and it helps us see our inner world through contrast and conversation. When we start to have a more holistic perspective on all of life being part of one source of energy, it helps soften our edges. No one is there yet… We are all getting there… Together!
When things get sticky, I have learned to “lean into it”, rather then just try to distract myself, run away or do a quick fix. Over time, you get to know the personalities and stories in your consciousness. The expansive ones and the contracted ones. How can we make them all work for us, and align them towards Love?! This is the work of inquiry, listening, integration and transformation.
Inner alchemy has been the project of Spiritual pursuits cross-culturally. There is a substance in us that desires to learn, to grow, to emerge from the cocoon. Consciousness, which we all have and are, is an ever evolving substance! So, to think there could ever be a moment of stasis or completion is fantastical. Look at nature's cycles. It NEVER ENDS! The Earth continues to spin, the Sun continues to burst gas and send light. We too are an ongoing process.
The Journey is the Destination. In my work with clients in divination and energy healing I want to assist in re-framing the story to one of growth, learning and evolution. Even when we are not sure yet when/where/what will emerge, we have to struggle, trusting, knowing that it’s part of the intelligence of Nature guiding us to grow, learn and transform. TO FLY!